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When do habits become addictions?

I read my horoscope a day ahead, every day, on two different sites. I am addicted to Manolo's blog, and I'm thoroughly enjoying Go Fug Yourself.

I miss smoking, because it organizes your time. The larger longer more complex tapestry of the long view is given order and reason in the short term, when you plan on doing something regularly. Habit, ritual, addiction.

Habits are private. Rituals are shared. Addictions are rituals that should remain private, but don't.

I'm smoking again because it orders the end of the day. The way that telenovelas have, or work, or habits or rituals or addictions. Because it lets me sleep; and because I don't want to, but I don't want to not to.